embracing the change

TWM = Tehilah Worship Ministry!

Today's TWM's gathering is really a refreshing time for me.

I used to procrastinate change and and I hate changing and adapting to the change. So whenever I get into a new school or place with nobody that I know, I will choose to escape or have negative feelings about it until I start to feel better with God's grace. Thus, when Renewal starts to change for the better, I too hope to have a change in my spiritual life too. But actually inside me, I resist change.

Today, during the worship, God spoke clearly to me that I need to embrace change and take actions to change my current situation and it will be a new fresh chapter of my life. I will take action to be more consistant in my quiet time with God, start my personal bible study time and learn how to have less of me and more of God.

Rev Chern prayed for me for the first time today too. It was a great time of ministering. I was very touched when he said something that answered my question to God and he also mentioned that I need to be more confident and have more faith. Indeed, that was what I need. I was crying badly when he said that the Holy Spirit is digging out the roots of my hurts in my family. I feel that I was crying like a child, like an innocent child wanting to be embraced by the Father. That was when he said that God wants to enbrace me and God love me. =) It was a good time between me and the Lord. Thank you, Huiyee for lending me your shoulder too. Heh heh, I think I really wet your clothes.

I am renewed! Embracing the change...