my baby cousin

Huixin is so adorable!
Now she knows how to 'twist' when she takes pictures,
she knows her ABCs,
she knows how to fit those jig-saw puzzles,
she knows how to choose her diapers' colours,
she knows how to avoid '辣辣' (spicy) food,
she knows how to bully my brother and take away his computer chair,
she knows how to order people around...

haha. Such a naughty yet adorable imp.
Sometimes I really dunno whether I should be angry with her or to laugh at her.

Kids are just so lovable.

hope

I've just finished watching a HK drama series - 识法代言人

When I first started chasing after every episode, I secretly wish that I can finish watching the whole series quickly. I'd watch one esp after another with enthusiasm.

But now, after all the efforts, I am gald to announce that I have come to the end of this drama.
But somehow, ironically, I just feel a teeny bit of disappointment.

I often get this kind of disappointment especially when it comes to good books or good movies or good drama series. There seems to be a kind of emptiness within me when I come to the end of the stories. Is it because there is no more continunity of the story? I think so.

We always need something to look forward to. Something that gives us hope.

It reminds me of my serving as a worship leader.
When I first started, I am so on 'fire'. I want to serve as often as possible.
But after many episodes of serving, I feel like I'm coming to the end of the story.
But the truth is no, there's a continuity. And in fact, that's that that makes me tired.
What I lack is hope and passion. With these, I'm sure I can do better.

Worship leading...

"We, worship leaders, are just signposts to point people to God, in both good times and bad."

-Daniel Seet, 13/2/07

Being a Worship Leader is full of challenge.

To serve with passion, to serve with influence and to serve with power.

Recently, it hasn't been smooth-sailing for me.

The weight of worship leading has been heavy on me, so much that I get tired of leading.

Whenever I'm choosing songs, my mind becomes blank.

I realise I'm running on my reserve, not from the Source of Power.

Thank God that He persisted and never give up on me. :)

Lord will bless me in this Youth Sunday's worship!

But all is not too bad. The various times that I led, despite the process behind every worship leading, the results turn out to be good. Miraculously! God will never allow His worship to be a failure. :) Good, as in people are worshiping.

The best is still ahead!
每一个必须得胜的战场，就是我们的心。

I will soar victoriously!

YES! :)

今天的提醒

上帝放在你心中最美丽的旋律，就是赞美。

Post-camp post

Recalling about the camp, I really have much after-thoughts about it.
This is my first time participating a camp as a committee.
It really wasn't easy organising one. In fact, it is more than tedious.
It requires a very detailed plan of the whole 4days 3nights activities.
Even as I'm planning the murderer game with Sihui and Huilin, the details of the story are unfathomable.

I'm in charged of the budget for this camp. And I'm so afraid of have deficit in my cash on hand.
So I prayed very hard. Trust me, I really prayed so hard. haha! I dun wanna fork out money from my own pocket or let any money disapear without any reason.
But God is a gracious God! He really works miracles! Or rather did I pray too hard?
There was excess in my cash on hand! And it's not a small sum. I double-checked and re-verified, but there was just excess! Oh man! God is fabulous! :)

As for Rakkaus, I really have nothing to say!
I wasn't able to participate and stay with my family most of the time.
I tried my best to stay with them, know the new friends and really have fun with them.
But it was hard. It really is easier to have more fellowship with the rest as a participant. :)

i was really worried about Rakkaus. The team dynamics of theirs, whether they were able to enjoy the games and whether they feel comfortable in the group. But thank God, in the end, I see everyone enjoying themselves. And we even emerged as the champion! That was really unexpected! (even to me, when i was calculating the points!)

But still, Rock on Rakkaus!


A family protrait of the piggy Rakkaus!

Rakkaus seriously at work... on our beautiful flag!

Post exam activities!

Woo! Finally after those grueling days of studying and stressing myself, I'm all set for the holidays ahead! It's gonna be a great holiday because I am not intending to get a job! haha!

1. First thing on my mind, I'm all geared to planning Renewal's bo.ga.me! (board games day) and our church camp! I'm getting really excited for these events and it will be really fun planning them! :)

2. Time to get rid of some resistant fats... I miss swimming & jogging. I'm not really good in either, but it's just the satisfactory that I get after indulging in some healthy activities. And of cuz imagining that I'm a tiny bit lighter. haha! Well well, actually I just like being sweaty at times.

3. Oh yea, spring cleaning. 'Our house is like a garbage house!' That's what my grandma says every time. And I seriously think it's true. So I have decided! I am determine to clean up my house, keep it neat and tidy. I spent my 3 whole days of my previous week, concentrating on cleaning up just ONE bedroom. And guess what?! I threw away like 3 big bags of rubbish! Imagine, one big bag is as big as the black garbage bag that we always see in those rectangular big rubbish bin. Incredible! :O haha! So this week, it's time for my own room before I move on to the living room, the (AWWW!) kitchen, the toilet and bathroom! I think that will certainly keep me occupied for another month...

4. Of cuz, I love spending time at home. Once on a bus with WenQi, I was commenting on how similar his siblings are to him. And he said something which sounds intelligent to me. "It's more fun to have a noisier home." What he meant wasn't that quarrelling/chaotic noise but the talking, laughing, poking each other kinda noise. I would certainly agree with him. My family the kind that we'll talk and talk (a lot!). haha! But i love it especially when i'm not having exams. I would talk to my bro, tease him and play along with him, chat with my mum about anything, and we'll all laugh at my little toddler cousin when she does interesting things. A kid certainly liven up everything in a family. :)

5. More time to just r.e.l.a.x...

:) God is good, always. pre-exam period, exam period, post-exam period... always...

The Lord is my strength, my refuge and my source of joy...

Counting my blessings

The most effective way to happiness is to count your blessings.
Thank God...

1. I live in the middle of the buzzling city.
All the convenience and hustle-free moments, how can i forget?
I can walk to Cathay and catch a movie in the middle of the night; I can fulfil my urge of shopping just in 5 minutes at Bugis Junction; I can cross the road to SimLim and get my printer inks; etc.

2. I live in a 3-room flat with so many people!
That makes us talk to each other and spend time with each other more. Love it when all of us sit tgt and get amused by our baby cousin.

3. I have all I need
I don't have a lot of money, but by God's grace, I have my laptop, my clothes, my sleeping place, my own table and many more. I am fully fed and was never starved. I can enjoy many outings without much difficulties.

4. I have a bunch of heart-to-heart best buddies, which are REBELS!
Known them since Sec1, and never want to get out of this fun and heart-warming group of friends. They never fail to invite me to outings even after receiving tons of my decline due to church. Whenever we meet, we always have never ending stuff to talk about. They will understand my problems and sms me now and then to comfort me and encourage me. And I know if I ever need a friend, I can have 9 of them to rely on. :) rebels rocks!

5. Of course, my lovely boyfriend.
He looks rather fierce and is bad-tempered at times, but if you look beyond all that, he is actually a very gentle guy. His fantastic points: good sense of direction, understanding, spontaneity, fun-loveliness, good planning, sensitivity and etc. Often we spend time together, reminiscence about our childhood and doing things that we like. For example, going to the arcade as if we are little children, sitting in a cafe and reading our own books, shopping in a supermarket, eating deserts behind Bugis Junction, me riding on his bike and going to many places, etc.

6. my beautiful teens cell.
I still remember the first time I met all of them. I really didn't know what to do because I was still so lost getting back from Shui. They were not exactly gelled tgt very well at that time. Sharing time was hard. But gradually, I begin to feel for the cell, to start praying fervently for them. And I see changes happening. Little by little, hurdle by hurdle, my cell begins to grow. Not exactly in numbers, (but we do have some visitors now and then) but in spirit. They mature and begin to understand things. They begin to opwn up and share things that the cell can pray for tgt. They are often my reason for smiling.

7. my tuition kids
They're really smart. But careless. haha! Nellis, Xuanyun(ex-tuition kid) and Andrew, you're doing great in your studies. I love to teach them, whenever they 'get it', I feel so satisfied. :) Tutoring is tiring especially during my exam period which is also theirs as well, but I truly feel happy whenever they know how to do the sums. Brilliant!

The list can go on and on... But all in all, it is God that I want to say Thank You! Because of You, all these blessings are made possible. Because of You, I have joy, not just happiness, overflowing out of me, no matter what I face. :)

You are the best!