Darlin' Do Not Fear

In case you're wondering what song is this...

Darlin’ Do Not Fear by Brett Dennen

When I arrived in my old set of clothes
I was half a world away from my home
and I was hunted by the wolves
and I was heckled by the crows
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

Alongside my innocence I laid in bed awake
conflicted and in chains with the impetus of age
but like a phantom she crept across the floor and out the window
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

From its place on the mantel my heart was taken down
scattered in a thousand little pieces on the ground
and I below the streetlamp like an orphan with a halo
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

cuz it won’t last
worries’ll pass
all your troubles they don’t stand a chance
and sometimes it takes more than a lifetime to know
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

Your confidences fall as your faith etched in stone
neither could comfort you from the wild unknown
so bury your burning hatred like a hatchet in the snow
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

If you have a broken heart or a battered soul f
ind something to hold onto until they go
to help you through the hard nights
like a flask filled with hope
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

cuz it won’t last
your worries’ll pass
all your troubles they don’t stand a chance
and it always hurts the worst when it’s the ones we love the most
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

sometimes your path is marked in the sky
sometimes it falls too thin in between the lines
sometimes all you can do is say no
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

I said when I arrived in my old set of clothes
I was half a world away from my home
and I was hunted by the wolves
and I was heckled by the crows
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

I said Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know
We said Darlin’ do not fear…

look into your hands...

During tonight's prayer meeting,
Pastor HockChye told us to look into our hands...
what has God gave you?
Then draw a cross on one hand...

When I look into my hands,
I'm given nothing much.
When I look into my hands,
God says it's a pure heart.

When I drew a cross,
my heart aches.
When I drew a cross again,
God says I must take up the cross.
Taking up the cross on this uneven road.
(taking up the cross = facing trials and taking up burdens)

Then Pastor HockChye said
"We'll have a beautiful future!"
I said "Amen".
All things work for the good for those who love the Lord.

God gives me a pure heart, as pure as a child.
But also an empowered heart, to take up the cross.
He will not give me more than what I can bear.
At the end, the victory will be mine!
Because God is by my side.

Talk to your kid!

I had a psychology tuitorial some time ago and something was said, which disturbs me till now.

"My 3-yr old son ar, always watch tv one! Bad for his eyes..."
"Shh... Stop playing with the MRT pole! Sit down properly and keep quiet!"
"Don't disturb mummy. Mummy is doing things. Go and watch tv."

Haiz... Sadly, these are things that we commonly hear parents say to their children especially in Singapore.

Busy parents in Singapore often do not have time for their children.
They don't talk to their babies much. They rarely play with them.
Learning to play is part of their development, yea? That's why toddlers with siblings learn much better, because they got somebody to play with them.

Do you know that Singapore children learn language slower than children in other countries?
Why? Because nobody talks to them and they learn to keep quiet because they get scolded for speaking.
In fact, for children like that, I'd suggest parents letting them watch tv even more.

There is a critical period for toddlers to learn language. If you miss that, they'll have more difficulties learning language.
When parents don't talk to their children, how can they pick up language?

Haiz.
Hence, my tutor actually says that children in Singapore actually pick up language more from the tv.

Parents, please bear in mind that you have to speak perfect sentences to your toddler, correct grammar and phonics.
Shift your pitch higher, speak slowly and look at them when you speak.
They receive more better this way.

This is really tramatic for me. Even though I know children can learn too when they grow up, but isn't it better to start from young?

From this, I tell myself that I will be a good mother.
Listening to my children, talking to them, playing with them.
They are such precious gifts from God.
I think God's heart must has hurt when these little children are neglected.

Rebels Friday Night Out!

Aww.... I miss Rebels so so so much!

Finally, I got to see them on Friday night!

It was great!

We went to this u-lu and yet famous place, called Timbre Bistro.This is how it looks from outside. It's like a little rest&relax bar.

This place is real bad.

1. You cannot ask for ice water after 9pm. Even though you are almost dying from thirst, you still cannot ask for ice water.

2. Don't bring ICE MOUNTAIN! Alvin's Ice Mountain water bottle got CONFISCATED, because you cannot bring outside drink inside. But at least give us ice water la. It's just plain water. Even if you get it from the tap, I also won't know...

3. ONLY Credit Cards are accepted after 10PM!!! Which means that poor students like us cannot pay cash after 10pm. Stupid idea...

4. It is so very noisy inside!!! When I talk to Rachel, who is just beside, I have to scream like a mad woman before she can hear me! Aw... So tiring.

5. There is no aircon. It is an enclosed outdoor place. It is so squeezy and there's no aircon. So all of us are sweating!

6. Be prepared to place your order and wait till the 2nd coming of Christ before the food is served. They took so long to serve our food. Come on la, it's just fish&chips! Poor Mervy.

7. They don't have enough money to pay the rent is it? The location is just beside the new Fort Canning Tunnel's carpark. It's at a remote corner of the carpark. You might not realise the place until you see the long string of queeue outside the bar. I don't understand why it is so popular?!

BUT I really enjoyed myself a lot!

It makes my day, it makes my week.

I can hate the place, but nothing beats than having Rebels with me.

They are the best!

Thank you Rachel, for sharing with me your stories. And I really love the encouragements that you often give.

<- Rach & I

Thank you Jiamin, for always suanning me, but always care for me too. And yes! Your terribly cute Pooh bear plaster on my ugly scarred hand.

Thank you Mervy, for just being there. Despite the busy army schedule, you're still here with us and your funny faces really make me smile.

Thank you Weiying, for letting us laugh and tease you about Barry. In the end, we'll always hope that you'll go on well with him. Oh ya! And your lame jokes always make us laugh!

Thank you Yanxing, your words always bring joy to us. Without you, it'll all be different.

Thank you Melissa, for letting me taste your drink. haha! You're like the angel amongst us, always attending our outings and being there. I will always rmb us exchanging emails when I was in China for 3 months. Your emails always make me pop up for my seat and rejoice!

Thank you Alvin, for sharing your joy and woes. You're a great friend not to be missed. Whenever I need somebody, you'll not escape from my mind.

Alvin & I

Rebels,
Our friendship is 6 year-old now. It hasn't been easy especially all of our routes diverge to different lanes. Some to NUS, some to SIM, some to army, some to SR and some to Poly. But I know, deep in us, our investment in this friendship will be deeprooted and it will not decay. I always think about this: Will I meet anyone else like us in my future? I guess not. We are so closely knitted despite our religions, our backgrounds, our routes, our gender and our location. No matter how many times I fail to turn up fro our gatherings, you've never failed to invite me time and again. Never forgetting me. I am so comforted to have you guys with me.

I am indeed blessed because of you, Rebels.

Friendship with Rebels is like an investment, never losing always gaining.

I love my tuition kids!

Natalie and Nellis are so adorable!
I love teaching them and having fun with them!


Nellis always has so much to share about her life, which is movies, prank callings and friends.
But, I'm always happy to hear her share about God!
She really grew! Spiritually!
Oh! I'm so delighted for her!

She, or rather her mum, bought me a bag as my Teachers' Day present.
Here is the bag, wrapped with aluminium foil. haha!
The beads are done by Natalie!
We did it together after our tuition session.


Natalie is a p4 girl who is very smart.
She loves to sing, loves Harry Potter and loves tuition!
haha! Yea, tuition with me, of cuz!


Today, she gave me a drawing.
Here it is-->
Those are chickens.


I often teach her Chinese with Allie, the elephant, because she has difficultity concentrating when it comes to Chinese, the subject that she dislikes.
And she wanted Allie to go home with me after tuition.
SO here's Allie!

The little piglet wallet is a gift from her too.
She bought it in China during her holidays.


Tuition sessions are always fun and enjoyable, and I love it so!
However, it is always tiring too.

I've got so many readings to read and essays to hand up.
Church activities are taking up my time but they are always fulfilling.
I haven't seen Rebels for AGES!
I miss them so much...


zhumin is tired...

Mozzie Invasion!

Mozzie invasion!

Oh my!
What is happening?!
Why are there so many mosquitoes in my house? Every where I go, I see a few mosquitoes flying about!
They are causing my grandma, uncle, mum, bro, sis and I to have mosquitoes BITES! NOT just the ORDINARY ones!!!
You'll see yellowish pus coming out and it seems to be a hole in your skin.
Eww.. That's really horrible!

Those mozzies! I'm gonna get them!
Never seen the violent me?
Here I come!
Transform!!!

I sprayed insectides all over my house before I slept yesterday night.
The mozzies left and went to the kitchen and out of my house.
BUT! BUT!! BUT!!!
I woke up at 5.45am this morning to whack those mozzies again!!!
They are determine to invade my house!!!
My achievement: I whacked 3 moquitoes with blood oozing out.
And I have a sense of satisfaction!!! =D
WAHAHA!!! I know that the blood on my hands are mine! They should return it to me!

Heh heh... I'm evil...

Irritated by mozzies... Huuump!

'Red' Day!

A normal Tuesday with a touch from God and it makes today a 'Red' Day! (Meaning a happy day)

This song "Top of the world" fully describes my feeling.


Top of the World
Lyrics by John Bettis
Music by Richard Carpenter


Such a feeling's coming over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes
and I won't be surprised if it's a dream.


Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear, its because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen.

Chorus:
I'm on the top of the world looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I found ever since you been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world.


It's a Christian song, by the way.


I was feeling quite insignificant for the past few days because I feel that I do not have any gifts or usefulness in church and God spoke to me so so so so soooo loudly today.


I was doing my QT and it reminds me that I have a place in God's Kingdom; I am His princess.


I began to read a book "And the angels were silent" by Max Lucado, which I bought many years ago but never spend time reading it.
"Activities aren't a sign of maturity." I always think that I am useful or precious in God's eyes when I am doing something.


However, that's not fully right.
God will still see me as precious, as His princess, even if I am not doing anything but just keep my heart close to Him.


This is something that I bring home today.


And it really brightens my day! Hee.
So happy!
I'm on cloud 9! Wooo....


Some pics that we took today:



Huge Smiles .......................... & ..................Weiting's 'smiles'



We are angry! Hump!............... See no evil; Speak no evil; Hear no evil!

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